Jesus Christ!

After -- let me see -- oh, I don't know, somewhere around 2 year of waiting, WIZARD OF GORE IS FINALLY BEING RELEASED TO THE PUBLIC. The DVD comes out August 17. And, to top it off, Watching the Detectives finally gets released the week before that, on August 12! 

It's not like people tke fucking forever to do anything with their movies, or anything. x.X

Gah it's so exciting though~~! XD

 I am going to take a moment and rail against those POST OFFICE BITCHES. I mean, the way it usually works is, I order something online, they deliver. Or they leave a notice. Or a phone call. Or something, anything. But no. This time, when I'm under time constraints, I decide one day not to answer the door and then when I look outside, they can't be bothered to leave a fucking notice like "Hey, we missed you, here's where you can pick up your package" or "We'll be back on __ day." No. No notice. No second delivery. I have to fucking twist their arm to give me information, and when they do it's "We sent your package back. No second chances" from a rude shit employee. Now I'll be lucky if I even get my damn boots in time. Fuckers.

 Sooo...

- I'm about to watch Torchwood. (KEEPING THE DREAM ALIVE seriously.)

- I really should be drawing because I want to and I should. Since I never do. Etc.

- I get paid tomorrow! YES! And I have a credit card now. Which is bad, because SEASON 1/2 SET HERE I COME. Plus more Sandman vols fuck yeah! Well, eventually. Really eventually. >.>

- Grr new Bleach chapter not out yet but will be soon~

- I bought a scarf for my J-rock outfit for CC, <3. It's green plaid, yay!

- And the middle of my lower lip has been numb all day and it feels so WEIRD. It's 'cos of my mom's lip venom shit from this morning. Yeah, my mom still kisses my goodbye before she goes to work. XD; 

My shuffles lately really like giving me David Bowie songs, LMAO. It's good with me though. Ziggy Stardust was a damn sexy beast. Well, Bowie generally is, but... that orange mullet was teh sex. <3

Oh and I love how the depression I was feeling last night about Doctor Who being over has turned back into love. Psh, nothing can keep me down heh heh!

So I just finished Doctor Who Season 4, which is mostly the end for a year, aside from various specials. It was amazing, so amazing! I totally freaked out at multiple points in "The Stolen Earth"/"Journey's End"... it was crazy. It's just that in the last five minutes or so of "Journey's End", it managed to leave me feeling like I had the taste of ash in my mouth. Rose may have ended up with the Doctor, yet it wasn't. I mean... it is, but having there be the same person at the same time in the same space... it just didn't feel right. Which is kind of the point of the show, in a way. I mean, obviously Time Lords live forever a long time and can't necessarily take such short-lived mortals as humans as lovers, but I thought somehow that he would. I mean, it feels like cheating, that Rose got the cast-off human-Doctor, even though it works out better because they're both human. And it's acceptable for her to be okay with Ten after having Nine, because he's the same yet different, but it's weird that he's the same but mortal. I don't know. I think I'm so disappointed with it because I wanted there to be something constant in the show, even though it's the show's nature to be fluid. *sigh*

But seriously, next to that, there's the Donna thing. And yeah, it's enough for the world to know that she saved them all, but she should be able to have the choice to live without her memories, or die with them! It wouldn't be the Doctor's way to let her die, I know, but still. Poor Donna. I love her. 

I think half my feeling of loss is that I won't be able to watch any more for ages, until 2010. Seems rather unfair, though I suppose I understand. Ah well, I'll have Torchwood, and the marathons to show it to Laurel. Hopefully.

It's weird, how days just sort of go by, and things happen, and there are things you're strangely okay with talking about that you maybe shouldn't be okay with, and things you're not okay with talking about for whatever reason but you want to talk about them anyway. I'm in that boat. The latter. I mean, I'm being vague on purpose even though it's obvious what it is, and by being vague I'm being melodramatic, and... Well. Life is weird. Really, really weird. Mostly because I don't have the right experience to think otherwise. And it sucks not having the right words to say to convey how I feel, or enough intimacy, if you will, to say them. Although I feel that way most of the time, situation notwithstanding.

My life has been put in perspective by others' events. And it's a weird perspective indeed. Perhaps eventually I can know what it is to have real connections with people who aren't family. It would even be an interesting thing to have them be broken. Oh dear, I sound like Hope when she gets moody. Mood rejected. >.>

My icon (and this post) reminds me of Sandman, when Merv remarks upon Dream and the rain in the Dreaming:  "Not him. Oh no. He's gotta be the tragic figure standing out in the rain, mournin' the loss of his beloved. So down comes the rain, right on cue. In the meantime everybody gets dreams fulla existential angst and wakes up feeling like hell. And we all get wet." 

Needless to say, I am a crass being without the knowledge of tact.

Nope. No life. As if that's new. But over the last week I have 1) made contact with my friend Courtney from Canada, which I would preface with "good" except that we talk so infrequently, so I can't say I know her particularly well. Awesome, though, is something I can say quite easily about her. <3 Oh the joys and wonders of Facebook. 2) I finished Season 3, and I must say I was disappointed with the ending. Ithought when I looked up DW icons that I saw some with 10/Master hints in them, but it must have been 9/Jack. *shrugs* Seriously, Nine's hair and the Master's hair? Eerily similar from the back. XD;; But oh well. Actually, Season 3 had a lot of Ten-angst. More of David Tennant screaming than any other season. Okay, well, I can't say it that way... I mean, he's only had two seasons at my point in time. Oh I take it back. But it was still cool - "42", seriously. That episode was so Sunshine! LMAO yep. I liked it a lot - shows you that sometimes there are things even the Doctor can't best, living suns being one. I like the idea that he's not all-powerful. Though, segueing into the Master from that, LOL, ...That sentence has too many commas. Um. The Master was cool until he decided that the best form of torture for a Time Lord is aging... Ugh. Old men. So not cool. Though, like Grendel, it was okay if I closed my eyes and simply listened. I'd be perfectly happy if that never happened again. D: But the Master is such a psychopathic kid hahaha. I want to make a Master icon using MCR's "Blood" - especially that "such an awful fuck" line. XD At least the Master was funny, ahaha. 

I woke up at 1:00PM today. It was horrible. I hate waking up so late! It defeats the point of not workng in the morning. I mean, I like being able to have some fun before work and come home and have fun too, instead of making work my life by sleeping right after. Bleh! That's why I've altered my schedule to be awake until 4AM, haha. Oh! I started reading Shoebox Project again! I freaking love Shoebox! It's practically more canon than the real Harry Potter series is, since Jaida and Rave write like real authors, as opposed to Rowling's writing-for-children/bad-fanfic writing. Haha but the point of me saying is that Jaida wrote a book! Well, co-wrote, but still! I totally did not know this. At all. Until I started reading Shoebox and noticed an update. Anyway, it's called Havemercy and it's fantasy/steampunk-ish and I'm so excited to read it! I'm hopefully going to buy it on my break tomorrow. :3 And that's the end of the update on my lack of a life, heh heh.

OHHH The real last thing I must mention is that Laurel and I sort of started our frist crack fic! It's Hirako/Watanuki, it doesn't have a name yet, and it's going to be awesome. I say 'sort of' because we haven't actually started writing - we made extensive notes to begin. Woo planning. But we're super excited and as soon as she gets back we'll start writing it.

After a week without work, working today kind of took its toll. ^^; My luck was that though I started at 4, I ended at midnight - and I got paid. My paycheck basically restores my funds to where they were before AX, hahaha. Nicely. ^^ LOL Money updates. >.> I like that I'm only working part time; it's a nice balance between doing something productive and being hedonistic. XD

So I'm back and unpacked from two days of AX! It would've been nice to post after each day, but our hotel didn't have accessible Internet. Or at least, we couldn't find it. >.> Hmm... Begin at the beginning, as they say. 

New layout! I'm extremely fond of the background pic of Watari - I mean, cute guy in glasses, with long hair, holding a don't-fuck-with-me mini-beam-cannon with a tiny little pet owl hovering around him? That screams 'made of awesome'. I just have to tear myself away from Doctor Who long enough to fix the text and sidebar colors...

Ah, and of course I spoke too soon - that Christmas special did deliver indeed! Heh heh, regeneration. LOL Rose 'Give me back my doctor!' to a very slightly bewildered Ten.

Watching the four eps of season 2 I missed, most likely rewatching the whole rest of the season. AX is Thurs.! I'm a bit nervous about my makeup and how I'll look in costume... And about the train. And the hotel. But since one of has ridden the train before, I'm hopeful. Definitely excited. Kind of wondering what sort of crazy shit I'll find there that screams at me to buy it. Hoping for some Vizard merch. It will definitely be an experience to be alone aside from a friend, in LA. Must hem my pants and sew my scarf tomorrow...

I saw Wanted earlier, and it was pretty damn good, even if it felt a little rushed and the characterization was perhaps a bit muted. Wesley was damn cute for a real-life-type geek, heh heh. And he looked very vaguely like Elliott Smith. I'm sure I'm the only one who would see any resemblance. ^^;; I was so excited to learn it was a Timur Bekmambetov film! And the Konstatin Khabensky cameo, too! He was cool. Didn't really have a point, but was cool. Which about sums up the whole movie. Eye candy, but who doesn't like a bit of eye candy? I was yearning for some blood, haha.

Okay, so firstly: I never expected Doctor Who to be as good as it is, and it is crazily, epically good in a way I've not encountered for some time. Especially concerning Eccleston - it pleases me to no end that I love the first series because half the time I choose things based on how sexy the men in it are, and though Eccleston is not bad looking by any means, he's not what I consider sexy, hahaha. And I actually support the Doctor and Rose! Nine or Ten, it doesn't matter. <333 The writing is just so damn good for this show~! Although I am glad to see Ten again. And the 7-minute special was also epic! So cute! So epic! And there was Ten-angst! I wasn't sure if I'd get anything like that. Er, besides "Doomsday". It kinda sucks that Nine got the shirtless laser torture, and the I-hate-you-goddamn-Daleks episode, and the weird painful-but-not-deadly lightning attack, when Ten is so cute... Not that I've seen everything, of course. I'm sure what is ahead will be better. Like the Master! Fuck yeah I'm excited for that shit. Ah! And Nine gets a peck from Jack, too. I swear Jack is the most shamelessly bisexual playboy on television. Er, don't answer that.

So yeah, finished the entire first season over a week of Netflix instant videos and weird videos with Chinese subs that are only viewable with Firefox. Which makes almost two seasons that I've seen, since the marathon decided to start five episodes into the second series. If I could get the damn 2005 Christmas special to download then I could continue, but as it stands I'm going to be waiting around for it tomorrow. >.> Or visiting Wyndham so I can grab a burned copy from him if my torrent continues to give me the infinity symbol... Ah, it appears my torrent sped up. I might just leave it on overnight, just this once.

I'm seriously considering buying the Doctor Who theme for my ringtone... That's bad. Must. Not. Obsess. So. Much...!

Also, making the same typo over and over is really starting to irritate me...

So the only thing I've really been doing for the last, oh, 5 days is watching Doctor Who, and it's weird that I'm kind of embarrassed about how obsessed I am with it... I think it's because it's the only TV show I've become obsessed with that's actually being aired. >.> Because there's Firefly, but that's a 15-episode series that was cancelled, and there's Criminal Minds, but that's something that spaces itself out weekly since I've watched it from Day 1 and know everything about it. So there's at least 100 episodes I need to watch.

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Apparently I subscribe to the religion of 'obsess over anything vaguely sci-fi or fantasy harboring a handsome and quirky hero'. The only thing that keeps it from being everything is my extremely strange taste in men. >.>

Yep. Seriously in need of mental help... You can tell how much of a life I don't have by how many obsessions I keep. Definitely strange, not healthy, etc... Not that I particularly care... Although that part contributes to my entire lack of a social life. What can I say? Everyone's better in fiction. And of course, now I must expound upon my materialistic pursuits of the day. By which I mean I went shopping. And I finally bought some grey jeans and Advent Children, which was floating around its case and is scratched enough to make me want to return it. Boo. But I got to hang out all day with Rachel, Aurora, and Rianna, and it was much fun, especially considering it got me out of the house. Not that I needed in particular to be gotten out of my house......... >.>

It will come as no surprise when I mention that we watched Goblet of Fire, because I am very proud of my dorkiness... though my obsessional tendencies tend to be slightly embarrassing... And yeah. Definitely very different. Be more different when I finish the whole of a series or 3. XD;;;

Hmm, that 's so weird, I thought I posted more recently than 6 days ago... But obviously not. ^^;

Well, I graduated! Which is good. Still not convinced I'm an adult, or that I'm actually going to college this fall. >.> I had been convinced all last week that I was a horrible person in Laurel's eyes, which she assured me is not true, haha, and I've gotten over it. Er, why am I saying that...? Whatever. Ah, anyway, we hung out Sat. and yesterday, and it was loads of fun except when we went shopping at Forever 21 with my graduation money and gift card, where I learned that their size 'large' is really more of a regular person's medium. And their clothes are pretty cute sometimes, too. u.u Also, their shorts and pants fit me extremely weirdly, being tight in weird areas and baggy in others. I guess I'll have to find somewhere else to shop. Although they do play some seriously ace music, though you wouldn't think it... I looked up a bunch of the songs we play during work hours. They're very good. :D Also, I bought Saiyuki Reload 8 and Spider Kiss by Harlan Ellison, both being made of genius. :3

The best news of my last few days is this: 

1) I am now rolling in money thanks to my grandparents. AX, here I come, and with abandon! Er, sort of.

2) I woke up today at 12:47pm - I didn't sleep until 4 last night - and from 2 until 7 I watched Doctor Who! XD Not exactly sure which season, but it's David Tennant's Doctor, so I think season 3? Maybe 4. Not sure how one measures a show with such a lifespan. ^^; Tennant, I might add, is amazingly cute with the Doctor's personality matched with his own expressions. :D I'll be watching Goblet of Fire in a whole new way. 

Edit: I don't understand at all why LJ is limiting how many characters my labels can have. It seems like the kind of thing that if it were done by a real person would seem petty and unreasonable. D:

Well, I would've commented about my job experiences earlier, but since I've mostly been awake until 2am every morning, which is later than I'm usually up, it doesn't allow for much besides sleeping. Er, that and the fact I was at my dad's being dragged aorund for Father's Day, which I didn't even get to celebrate for him. u.u

Working at Forever 21 is kind of like signing up for the witch schedule from Kim Harrison's books. I'm awake from about 10 in the morning, maybe 11, until about 2 in the morning. Okay, not as long into the night as KH's books, but close. Plus I'm awake trying to clean a store, folding and organizing and eventually just trying to find a spot for something that looks like it might belong there. And walking laps in the accessory store, maybe. It certainly beats Ralphs, but then, I think most jobs have something over Ralphs. >.> 

Yesterday I managed to figure out what I'm doing about AX - we're taking the Amtrak there, staying in a hotel, and taking the train back. A little more expensive than I was thinking to pay, since I wasn't really thinking, but a good idea and much easier than not having a plan at all. :3

Ah, and Thurs. is a Doctor Who marathon! I get to watch Doctor Who, yay~~~

Honestly, I should be studying for my last two finals tomorrow. But ugh. I'm so tired 'cos I'm sick, and I just want school to be done.  I can feel the finish line tape, seriously... It's Spanish and Anatomy, and I'm so-so at Spanish but my grade is a high B (but not high enough to get an A, I think...) so I have a really big cushion. And I've been doing subjunctive for three years, so I should know it all by now. And I think I do, mostly. 

Anatomy is my best class, 'cos I actually like Hartford, my teacher, and I know the stuff too. It's mostly easy, except maybe for the diagrams... But at this point I'm not going to drastically change my grades for the better, so I'm content to sit back and wait for the end of tomorrow.

Still no schedule, but F21 called today to get some last minute info. If they don't call tomorrow by the time I get out of school, I'm calling about my schedule. Mmmmyes. I needs some moneys, yep.

Oh! Wow, it's been a year since I started this journal. Go me for keeping it up so long. ^^;

Only one more week of school starting today! And then I'll never have to go to another shitty school dance, or do freaking Spanish homework, or (hopefully) any more Government-type classes. Finals are Thurs./Fri. and even though its three a day without being minimum days, I've stopped caring. All I have to do now is go to Forever 21 and sort out whatever it is that's precluded them from giving me a schedule...

 Well, prom was a bust. I forgot how much nothing I do at dances... No social skills, no will to mingle, no desire to dance. It makes for a lot of waiting. Plus I have no friends, especially of those who went to prom. Surprisingly I was mostly just blah about it... I felt bad for Rianna though, going there for Shawna but having to deal with Lili being constantly around. Not that it doesn't make sense, since Shawna and Lili are dating. But yes. Epic fail and wasted money.

 WTF x2: 1) I've been listening to Belly for three days now? But I've had this album for years and touched it very little? Ahahaha I knew there was a reason I kept it, at least. :3 It's like Scarling but more indie than goth/metal. I mean, how can you resist the sweet little girl vocals and creepy music / lyrical themes?

2) Amazon sells Sandman volumes for 32% off the cover price!! All the time! And if I buy two I get free shipping! Where the hell was I when this happened? >.> Game Of You and Worlds' End, here I come. And then maybe The Wake and Preludes. Bwahaha... if I start working and it doesn't kill me.

Bwah, and I want all the manga that come out this month as well as the xxxHolic DVDs I don't have. u.u Er... I'll stop complaining.

 Damn~ I just put in four different applications on Sunday, and I've already got a job. I stayed home from school since I had an interview at Forever 21 (^^;;) at 10 and a dentist appt. at 2, making it kind of worthless to go today... but Forever 21 called me back in like 3 hours and asked if I could go to orientation tomorrow. They work fast. o.o As long as I have a source of income, I almost don't care where I work... I need any job so I can pay for AX and Comic-Con. ^^;; Thank God I actually have one now! :3

I started watching Gurren Lagann too, on Sunday, and I'm utterly not surprised that Viral is indeed my favorite character. XD Especially since his seiyuu is someone I know and like: Hiyama Nobuyuki, who played Ikkaku in Bleach. Yep. Viral = awesome.