I feel pretty accomplished, yet also lazy and full of ennui. Why? Well, accomplished because I made it up and back to my mom's house in Crestline without dying (though I did have to use my phone-a-friend lifeline on the way back... My mom wrote that I should take the 261 instead of the 241 and it screwed me up. D:)

On the other hand, I went to my manager Vanessa's farewell party tonight, and I felt very singular and separated from them all, what with being unable to drink, and without strong connections to any of the people there. I also just was down because it's really hard to find friends here (in Orange County) and now (being an in-between teenager), because I want stylish, fun, intelligent friends and there don't seem to be any. Also, my standards are higher than Mount Everest.

I am partially down because I would like nothing more than to befriend the Horrors - all I've done the past few days is watch all the Youtube videos on them, discovering how fun and cute and nice they are. Okay, I sound really pathetic. It's one of those days. I have no idea why I even get this way, I mean, I took my medication... I need more social interaction. I wish I had money to live in Berkeley. Sigh.